Monday, June 10, 2013

What do I know/believe bout God?

This is different then my usual blogs about cleaning. A couple years ago I used to blog about my beliefs about God & I don't believe they were ever read, but I blogged anyway. They were very confidents that I knw what I was talking about. I'm not one of those people who has tons of verses memorized. I do my best but I can't always tell you where they are located. Does that mean my faith is less of someone else who can?I don't believe so. I go to church as often as I can. I will tell you that I don't remember everything the minister says & I don't take notes. I do remember being told that God is ll knowing, all loving, & every where at once.  I belive these for sure.
   What I don't get is how society has created their own God. Or use verses to prove their own point & not God's point. Or why people who go to church want to rugue with each other over something tirvial & miss the whole concept of love in the end. Doesn't God tell us to love our enemies? It's in the Bible, reasearch it.
 I remember a lot of conversations of, "Hey, you are supposed to forgive me." "I'm not perfect so that's why I did what I did." Don't forget that others have boundaries. Boundaries I have learned are very important in relationships. I have people I want to forgive me who I need to forgive but I have choosen to from a distance because I do not want to be a doormat. Do I not still have feelings just cause you pulled out something from the Bible & used it for your own gain?
    I am not in any way trying to debunk anything from scripture. I just think society verses God is a tricky subject. God's name should not be mentioned at school or inpublic places cause it's offnesive. How ever it's ok to wear a shirt with weed on it or a swear word & no one is to think twice. Throw John 3:16 on a shirt & it's about as bad as someone wearing a shirt with a gun on it.
   I hear a lot about one shouldn't do certain things or support certain causees if they are Christian but so wht if do? I have made many istatkes in my life. I still ask, "God where are you?" I'm sure the story of Jesus calming the storm fits my life right now. I know He calms the winds of my life as he did for the disciples.
  I just have lots of questions. I think my questions are more for society to think then for God.
  Why are we so preoccupied about different religions & who is allowed to belive and not allowed to belive in the name of Jesus? Why are we so caught up in you must be have, act & think, dress & do this that or the other jump through hoops & so on in stead of just accepting? What does it mean to truly love one another? Why is it when someone tells someone no they get all mad about something instead of thinking it through? Why do we have different Gods or faiths? Why does our money say "in God we trust"& we use it every where we go but people have a hissy fit if people want the kid to say the pledge of allegience? Do you also know that some peopel who flip out knowing that I'm a woman writing and asking questions but if it were a man itd be ok even though we live in the twenty first century? Why is it that we are always stepping three steps forward & two steps back?
   Why does God seem to show favoritism to people when Acts clearly states he does not. I have a deep desire to to be able to be a famous singer, dancer, painter, photographer or even a blogger.  Will that most likely happen? No, does it make me of any less self worth if I can not pay all my bills right now cause there aren't enough jobs out there or I don't have the right skills? No, I don't think so. Am I any one of any significance like a counselor or pshycologist?
   No, I'm just a single mom who has hard shares just like any one else. Do I go on misions over seas or have a full time job? Do I have things I'm trying to work on or people I'm trying to forgive or love that I really don't want to? Oh but of course. Does any of this infringe on my beliefs in Jesus/God (trinity)? I do not believe so. I have no idea what will happen at the end of my life but I do believe that we can as a culture come together & introduce people to others that can help us. I just get really tired of people putting limits on themselves, out casting others, & putting God in a box. God is bigger than anything & all we need to do is believe, we don't have to speak in toungues not all can only some, we don't all have to be married or successful or have emals at every schedualed time frame. We don't need to do anything but let God fight for us & listen. I just know some people are going to complain if they read this casuse I didn't use any verses. If so then you missed the whole point.

Monday, January 28, 2013

they grow up and then what's next...

I have a child who is a pre teen at the age of nine.
He goes to school on a week day Monday through Friday basis.
He can do so much on his own.
He can help me load up the grocery cart and bag things.
He can help me vacuum and dust and feed the pets.
He can read his books by himself.
He can do math better than I can.
I think the only thing he can not do is drive a car.
One day that too will come and he will be on his own for sure.
He wakes me up most days and says I need to get up.
Soon he will be sleeping in.
I find it amazing all the things he can do.
He knows how to shower and doesn't need me to give him a bath, those days are long gone.
He likes to take pictures on his own with a simple camera.
Kids soak up so much we teach them.
It is important for them to have people that he can look up to.
Don't hold them back, don't ignore them. Don't think something else is more important then they.
It is true if you want them to tell you stuff when they are older be there for when they are young.
They are only young once, don't be too hard on them but not too laid back.
If you want them to try you have to try.
Enjoy each moment cause soon you will be sitting there thinking what next?

-Wendy Lovelace

Monday, January 7, 2013

why do I not want to have another child...

Hello agian,

  It's been sometime after the holidays.  I went to Joplin, Mo beause that's where I grew up.  I was unable to get on the interent when I was gone.  Just too much to do.
  I'm still the woman looking to clean for my own business.
  I choose a different topic for tday as I have before.
  I have a thought that has been on my mind a lot lately.  Their are reasons why I do not want to have anther child.  I have one & I myself was an ony child. I was able to make up for it in cousins that are very awesome.  I was not always able to be around them since I had to move away at one point in my life but moved back years later.
  I had my firstand hopefully only child when I was 22.  I was unfortunatly not married.  I think that and being on bed rest for three months were the main factors in this decision.  I am a small girl so it was very uncomfortable.  There are lots of women who love to be pregnant and have babies.  I applaud them.  However in my circumstancs I was not happy.  Not all of us women enjoy being pregnant or giving birth and their is absolutly nothing wrong with us.
  I also had cysts on my ovaries a year after having my son. This happened a few different times. It was very intense & they popped so I had not opperation.
  I am stronger now then I was back then.  I am a black belt in tae kwon do.  I have been exercising a lot which I didn't do before.  I still am uncomfortable at the thought of having another one.  My first child also didn't want to turn.  I had to have a c-section.
  I think being left with a child and having a hard time finding a mate later on makes it more obvious I do not want any.  I think I prefer the thought of adopting or finding a man who had children from a previous relationship.  Obviosuly as long as he cares for them & properly provides for them.  I think this world is also so messed up why would I want to bring a child into it.  I'm not the only one who thinks this.
  I have to deal with being the one who works and I can't always be around him.  It stinks not being able to be a stay at home mothers these days.  I had plenty of funds when he was  ababy but funds run out and life goes on.
  I think women need to work on their career first before having a child and a family.  My advice from things in the past would be find a mind who meets all the needs besides being available.  Being available is only a small portion of the deal.  If he doesn't hold down a job then move on sister.  I beg you.  If he doesn't have the same beliefs as you, move on.  Or if he pretends to but then only wants personal gain, move on.  Too many women think nothing will happen.  Oh no move on.
  If I had anything to say I would say a lot to my sons fater but I don't think it would do any good.  I think a real man will own up to his responsabilities with out having to run from them.  That is my point of view is that he ran & other make excuses for him.
  Maybe if I had a better first experience at this whole parenting thing I might think differently.
  I was not wanting an abortion.  Those are a quick fix to a temporary problem.  Babies are a consequence of an action just not something to discard.  Usually churches are the best place to go.  I think I have made a lot of friends by going to church.  I love church & I love the Lord.  Churches often have a bad rap for asing for money or for people making clicks.  I think if people are treating you badly take it to the mnister or counseling programs they have.  Everyone who goes to church has issues and is not perfect.
  I think for the most part I felt like a big hypocrite because of my actions.  I have asked god to forgive me & feel right with myself.  It''s not about what others think or what the other side of the family feels.  It's hw you carry yourself & how I carry myself after it's all said & done.  It takes two to tango.  People will either be their for you or not.  It's a long journey & I wish there were more facilities to help women in need.
  I don't need clothes or furniture.  I need job training.  If you google stuff about single moms often they go out and start their own thing.  Support small businesses cause you could be changing the way of people.  I think I may be taking a big risk in saying a lot of this but I doubt many people read blogs anyway. Why is is people kow more about Wal-mart, Target, Bass Pro& so on & so forth.  You can get good quality stuff from other ways.  Good luck out there & you're not alone.

-Wendy

Monday, December 31, 2012

never give up

I read an article about the topic never give up recently. It's a facebook group called Sisters in Christ that gave me the idea.  There was a picture of a duck climbing a wall.  You may have seen it.
I'm 5'2" and I way 97 lbs at 31 years old.  I'm a first degree black lt in tae kwon do.
I have a child & i'm a single mom.
If I had let all of my set backs stop me I would never have gotten my black belt.
Each day is a new day to try to dream the same dreams or to dream new ones.
Ever feel like you are going no wear fast?
Ever feel like what is the point?  Ever feel like thr is too much sadness to make a difference?  Ever wonder how other people out there make it?
I do not have all the solutions but a cheesy suggestion that I like.  I think happiness has to be your own choice. I don't always want to get things accomplished.  If I gave into that all the time could you imagine how depressing that would be & how much mor sadness that would add to the world?
I think I feel bad for all those in places where they don't have all the good food & access to doctors like I do.
I think being small is an obsticle for me.  I think it makes me feel like I can't do as much as othr people can.  I can't lift a lot, I can't each up high.  I shouldn't let my differences keep me down.
I am made differently cause I am here for different reasons & I have new days to keep trying.
I keep trying  find new ways to get out there.
I joinedmeetup.com the ther day.  I went to my first meeting. I meet fellow photographers to discuss like interests with. It was a free group.  Not all groups are free on it.  I handed out some of my business cards for my cleaning services.  New friends I meet can contact me & hang out or pass it along for other possible clients.
If we dwell in the well that may not work so why try it we let evil win. I think if more people learned that getting into trouble & having more kids then we can afford is just sensless we would be better off.  I'm against abortion, but I think men & women should work hard & control themselves.  I may be chastiesed for saying so but it's what ever.
I think if you have friends who have a dream to go for & it's not hurting anyone we should support them on it as much as we can & not be affraid.  How can we live in fear?

Saturday, December 29, 2012

two poems

A single mother's wish:
12-25-12

(I wrote this Christmas evening)

I have many dreams of my own put on hold for someone more imortant than myself.
I have many dreams of my own put o hold for someone I love even more than myself.
There is someone I brought into this world a few years ago.
Someone who made me able to see how I need to change.
If I could have a wish I know what it would be.
I wish for people to see a world though me.
I am not trying to say I am always right.
I am not trying to say you are always wrong.
I wish for people to understand in a glimer of light the choices I make.
It's hard already for me to work, to do chores and to mee everyones criteria f how they think we should be.
If I'm having a bad day I wish you could get off your high horse and lend an ear and a heart
to help out.
Criticizing I don't take to well,doing this on my own.
I try my best to please if you could pick up on my cues that might be of interest to you.
Some peace, solitude, understanding and extra helping hands are welcome,
just not an ignoring shoulder or glare.
As a wish I'd wish for you to help us be what much more we can be.
We don't want to be burdens but blessings in our own disguise.

(part two)

Dear public schools:

All the students rush to their lines to go and sit in neat little desks.
They have many things to learn in a day, a year.
They have more to  learn than what's in those books and those tests.
They have to lear how to deal with the dirty looks.
Sometimes some kids are a bit more sensative and oters even teachers call them
tatle tales.
It's all a combination of effors from everyone because we all have different
things about us.
We all have different things that make us unique.
Book smats are very important.
It's what gets us the jobs and carrers out thre we meet.
Maybe we can learn to develope tougher skin and a safer
place we can learn in.
It all seems so rushed for some.
It all seems as a gift for other.
We all deserve life long friends and good memories.
I think most of it starts in the home.  Not all of it,
I may disagree. Can you control how much you laugh at
someone elses misfortunes.
It may mean the world for them.
I send my own child into these schools.  All I want is for his safety
and education which is more then those books and tests.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

cleaning why it's important

Hello again,

   I'm back!!! If that's a good thing or a bad thing it deepends on you. lol  I have been doing lot of research on finding cleaning jobs.  Most sites that have people adverstise are wanting a montly payment.  I'm sure there are more good ones out there besides care.com. I think friends who know other people besides who I know are a very good way to start.
   Cleaning someone elses house is much different then cleaning your own.  Sometimes you have more days to clean some areas as opposed to a few hours.  If they want you back you have to do it top to bottom and say what you do and do not handle.  I think for me starting off cleaning in businesses has deffinatly made me realise I would much rather clean houses.  I don't have stals to clean only a bath room or two.  I don't have a bunch of coustomers running in and out of a store.  I only have one family or person at a time.  I think it is much easier to build up trust because working for yourself you can make contracts.  As opposed to working at a store you have do go by their rules.  I have found sometimes at stores they expect you to be plumbers almost.  If I were cleaning a house I would say that I do not handle plumbing issues and I do not repair carpets, I only vacuum them.  Also you may have to say if you can help them declutter or not.  Some people may want all their stuff but not get rid of it.  One more thing, let them know if you cook or not, some people may think you will but I do not cook.
   There are boards along the walls of the house at the bttom you can wipe off, dishes to do, laundry ask if they want new bedding or dusting.  Sometimes they may have a room they prefer you to stay away from.
    I feel the hardest part is building up the clients first.  It takes time and people have to be willing to help you.  Sometimes working for toher companies seems like a good idea but they want you to have experience of a couple years first.  Lots of moms I feel would be great at house cleaning.  Some mom's jsut do not want the time.  I saw the best add that said "Give the gift of clean."  It can be a gift if you know someone who needs it but can't afford it then offer it for them.  Sometimes I try to think of my own catch phrases but lots are taken.
   I think what is great about me trying to become a house keeper is that I have a child to clean up after as well as teach him how to clean on his own.  I also am comfortable around pets seeing that I have a few.  I think having a resume present helps and possably a business card to look more professional.
  Being a mom I have to learn how to multi task and maintain order.  Doing laundry and dishes and vacuuming is a part of my every day routine so why not try to make a living of it for someone else who doesn't have the time?
 Plus if I work for myself I don't have to worry aout someone elses schedule like a managers.  I just have to say I have to drop my son off first and then I can come over and clean by around 10 am if that suits.  Sometimes for mom's it can be hard to find a good job with a tight schedule and little help.  So you can kill two birds with one stone.  Find someone willing to work and work it appropriatly to schedule needs. Find an individual who want to clean for someone who doesn't and will pay.  People don't always have to go out far over seas to help others, look in your own town.

  Merry Christmas!! Happy New year!!!

-Wendy Georgia Lovelace

Friday, December 14, 2012

creativity

Hello again,
     I have beeb doing lots of investigating on things to do at home.  For me I feel I am going to try to be a hostess at a restraunt.  I have not picked any one particular one yet but I think it could work.  I may not have ideal help now but I could work evenings on weekends and pick my locations.
   I admire people who can be that creative person and find ways to make a little extra money hear and there from home.  My favorite idea was selling books you don't need any more cause you've read them.  I have a few books I jsut tend to give my stuff to good will cause I'm too lazy to have a yard sale.  I hear people don't always make much at those.  Then when it comes to it eventually wouldn't you run out of stuff to sell though?  For me I'd love to seel some of my books or cds even.  I have my cds in a container and no longer have the cases but they are still work able.  I have changed my style of music.  I have quite a few pop culture cds I do not use any more.  I have a yong child so I am very particular on what we listen to at home or in the car.  I make a lot of art as well.
   The only thing is I would have to make the right connections of people cause I would feel bad about asking just people I know cause I know alot of people have money problems as well.  I work part time but it is kind of far away.
  Here are is a small list of legit ways to make some money if you know the way to advertise and people to make connections.  This is just from googling efforts.

  Pet sittig:  It is becoming a big trend because a lot of people realize how uncomfortable their pets are away from home.  I do not smoke so for me this would be a plus.

  baby sitting:  I worked at a day care for a while and after taking some classes and that I have discovered I like babysitting at my home or someone elses home.  I have pets so I have to be aware of peoples allergies.  I love children just a few at a time because other people that help at day cares tend to leave you to do their own things.  It depends if you have a really good day care.  If you have your own kids you can always suggest that and lots of people like play dates for thiers.

 garage sales: Garage sales can get you seom stuff but you have to be willing to part with stuff.  Plus it helps if you can get up in the am.  People love to go for those early cause that's when the good stuff sells.  Normally by the time I get there it's just nick nacks you can find any where.

Cleaning:  Do you like to be organized?  I am not great at it but I try.  I love to dust and I love to put things away.  It's time consuming and relaxing.  Maybe you can't make money from this at home but you can control your ours.  I have learned looking for work under someone else they may not always under stand your schedule.  I am just about always early.  It's one of my good qualities.  I love taking my son to school and picking him up.  I figured if I was my own boss I could do that, sometime I'd need help.  Plus if you use your wn supplies you'd probably have to work that into the price.

I'm sure there are other ways.  This is a small start so I'm always lookin for responses.  I'd love t hear from you.  Take care and Merry Christmas!!